and he sae try not tuh sae tuh many things tuh them.!!cos they might tell her!!but as eu can see i've learn my lesson!!not tuh talk about someone!!and it's liked damn it!!i talked tuh loud n th person heard me in th manager room!!it's liked oopps!!!

i should shut my mouth instead!!!and fur me i can't be bothered tuh those who dun wana talk tuh me.!!n i will grant ur wish if eu dun wana talk tuh me.!!but not a black face if i asked eu something ok??pantang!!i'm not refering tuh eu,but eu!!!dun get th wrong idea!!

again again n again conflict!!!!!it's liked is dis life tt we wanted it tuh be or wat.??we can prevented it by happeing rth if we want it???n givin each other a chance tuh speak up.?!!it does werk rth am i rth tuh sae dis.???

and everyone do changed!!!am i rth.???and i'm changing.,eu changing.,she changing.,he changing..who else is not changing eu tell me now.???i'm being dumb or wat.??i'm stress rth now lah!!

dumb dumb!!!

ha!!faiz saes tt i now looked liked a golden monkey!!thanks ah idiot!!n step sae somthing yesterdae tuh him before i left mac!!!n stop thinking lah dei!!!i will n never be wth idiot liked him again ok.!!!not finding fault wth eu!!!but at times it good tuh think!!cos ure making ur brain werks..hahahax

hmmm...high expectation from eveyone!!gosh!!give me a break please can.??ve been away from mac fur many daes n lots of them asked me whiie n wat happen n i told them everthing!!!and i feels much beta now wen i'm away eu noe!!my hand doesn't hurts tt much anymore!!

had a wonderfull fridae!!a great dinner wth me eu she n her!!hahax..i noe tt i went head wire wen heading back home!!hahax..i can't stop criticizing th manequin!!hahax..rili damn funny ok??

my mind set thinking again!!!of killing myself!!i jux duno whiie!!!and i asked mum whiie does GOD ve tuh take away my love one!!and whiie they dun wana take me instead!!i would trade my like if i can..n mum sae tt cos "GOD loves them more he loves eu!!"

damn it!!n mum saes tt even if i tried tuh kill myself,no matter how many way i tried GOD still dun wana take me!!and GOD dun love eu liked he love others...



nnn wat does it feels liked w/o eu in my life???meaningless!!!i'm not prepared tuh leave eu yet!!cos i'm scarred,scarred of loosing eu!!but i noe tt one dae i might or will loose eu!!!n tt some dae will come rth.??n saeing th truth i dun mind if eu see dis..i love eu more den anything else n eu mean everthing tuh me!!!n i duno wat will i be w/o eu around me!!!i love eu more den i love my fren!!!who asked them not tuh be eu!!!if not i oso will love them liked how i love eu!!!they jealouse.??let them be bahx!!hahahax...if eu never see me around anymore it is a must fur eu tuh miss me horx!!!n must think of me wen eu wake up early morning n think of me wen eu wana sleep.!!!let me be th first n th last one in ur mind!!!ok.???please be carefull next time!!dun cut urself again..see ur hand got so many cut!!n it's liked OMG!!!eu got enough blood not.??dun call me dumb dumb already lah!!i noe i dumb but dun sae lah!!wait more dumb how.??hmmm..wen is ur holidae.??wana go out fur th last time!!!



Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn’t healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Baby there’s a lot that I miss
In case I’m wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I’d ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I’ve longed to be your girl
But I never said a word
I guess I’m gonna miss my chance again



ps: cos there ain't nothing tt i can do tuh let eu stay!!!

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