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todae wasn't late fur werk.was lotd tuh do lobby.but i came tuh th counter tuh help out.hit n run lobby n counter.but later on i found out tt th shake machine was in th heat mode.i got tuh wash it again since i'm onli th one who noes how tuh washed it.spent my time at th shake machine till 11am.

wen tuh take over ragini fur break.i'm all alone wth chong shan.tt super zhu!!damn him.he dare tuh call me super zhu!!even wen i go fur my break he called my zhu!!!everywhere i go in th store he would call me zhu!!damn it!!do i looked liked a pig tuh him???

even wen he wanted tuh changed his schdeule he call me zhu how tuh asked fur help if wana cahnged schdeule.i jux dun understand whiie come cheena dun understand wat is he trying tuh sae wen i'm not even cheena i understand wat he's trying tuh sae.

he speaks human language not alien language.so whiie they dun understand!!!stupid ppl!!!!tmr is april fool dae.hmmm..i'm being evil.i ve plan on my mind n i'm making a prank!!see which is th lucky one n got my prank!!hahahaha..

tmr will be gg out wth xuan they all tuh jurong tuh shop at th new shopping centre.ELV birthdae is coming soon.n it's very soon!!ve no idea wat tuh get fur her.n andrea wedding is around th corner tuh wonder wat tuh get fur th two of them..hmmmm...

dis month pay very lil...my annual leave wasn't aprove by joanne nor yingling.hmmm..bite my lips ah!!!till th next pay.!!!!

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive


ps:blinded my love

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No I cant be wth eu
Cos I'm scared felt like I was fallin wen eu left me
I cant keep gg through life
Unaware of wat I missed
And th person I could be
Love's good wen its right
And wen it's left in ur memory
All the times I let eu down
I guess love will be nice fur someone elses life

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do i looked unhealthy tuh eu?am i getting sick?maybe i over werk or i ve not been sleepin fur nights.almost late fur werk fur this few daes.gosh!bad habit!some ppl made me ve some shocking news.damn it!!lucky it wasn't on april fool dae.hated those ppl who created th mess in my life in mac.

i ve told them everthing n still stupid rumous which wasn't true at all!or not even th words which came from me.ppl sae is i told them.god damn it!!if eu were tuh liked him jux tell me straight tuh my face n i will jux back off n let eu ve him ok!!eu doesn't ve tuh made me ve th bad impression in th store or even made my friendship wth him sour.

i seriously can't be bothered wth cheap ppl in my country.and i feels disgusted by th friendship which i ve wth him.he doesn't even belive wat i said!!and it's ok!!who am i tuh eu tt eu would believe me rth??i ve told joane about his matter.

she's looking into it.n she's gg tuh ve meeting wth th cheena crew.i waited fur joane fur many hours man.n it's tiring.talked tuh her about alot of things which i find there is a need tuh talked about.todae i did transition.after tt me n jenny wash th ice cream machine n th shake machine.jenny took th icream machine n i took th shake machine.

it was rili tough.never do th shke machine before.i onli did th ice cream machine onli.n took me n jenny four hours tuh get tt machine done.we wash it but th machine can't on.so we dispensve it again.n i got damn tired i went tuh ve some food tuh eat.after tt i came my machine was doing fine.but jenny wasn't doing any good.

so i tired tuh put th freezer board but th board got stuck.n boss scolded me.cos she thinks tt i ve made th machine spoilt.hahax..after tt we were all done at around 4pm.i was suppose tuh punch out at 2pm but due tuh th machine i punch out late.n i didn't punch out fur break.oops!!hahax..

new cheena crew in our store one name zhong ren n th other name chong shan.one is very quite n th other one is noisy.n chong shan called my super pig todae!!i was liked..=________='' do i liked liked a pig tuh him??gosh!!my nick which was given by him..damn him!!

don't get th wrong idea!!i'm not intersted in anyone now.being single is much more easier!!more fresh air tuh breath.n more space fur myself.azun is jux my fren.he been there fur me wen i wanted him tuh be.but few daes i didn't msg him cos i doesn't wana disturb him.he's busy wth his werk.heard tt he's getting lazy as daes come.

i onli will looked at guys n sae things out.tt shows tt i'm appriciating th beauty!!hahax..adore th beauty.n wishing how my bf would be liked tt.but hahax..it's onli th mouth doing th talking.but wasn't ready tuh be wth someone.not cos i still can't forget him nor can't letting him go.th feeling changed n i rili don't wana wish tuh think of it.

thinkin about th past it rili killing my brain.!!!leading my life..



ps:forget about me

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azuan texted me yesterdae night.was damn shock!!told me my things n so on.msg him quite late.didn't rili wana tell him tt i wana sleep.but since evertime i sleep wen he wanted tuh msg him so i jux entertain myself wth th msg.before i could tell him tuh be carefull wen his fren fecth him n take bike tuh yishun.he already fall on th road.lucky not tt serious.

he sae i so naggy.liked makcik!!but it's fur his own good tt i nag at him.he asked me tuh transfer tuh tanglin.but it's far lah.azuan is liked my onli one tt i can talked tuh now..

it's liked now i got who??everyone is walking away from me.even him.!!cos having frens liked me it's not worth.blogging about my feeling about them will make them angry or not even talked tuh me.so wat can i do wth my blog now?post poetry??

hmmm...

noreen asked me tuh perm my hair instead.but i seen it.it rili do looked wth perm hair.hahax..i will try tuh perm it.but not now bahx.cos i jux do some rebonding.hahax...went out wth ialh todae.bought some cloths..

hmmm..now at home.gg tuh msg him soon.n gg tuh see my show.gtg!!!



ps:he doesn't need me in his life as a fren...

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th moment tt i will remember...



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"The road to happiness lies in two simple principles: find what it is that interests you and that you can do well, and when you find it, put your whole soul into it - every bit of energy and ambition and natural ability you have."

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don't ever make me angry.cos eu will never noe tt one moment my hand will fly rth tuh ur face.i don't liked th way eu talked tuh me or even interfer wen i'm talking wth other cheena crew.and doesn't mean ure from china we must treat eu th best.stop saeing tt eu don't understand wat i'm trying tuh sae.tuh me it's just an excuses.and don't speak th language which i don't understand.tt shows tt ure a coward tuh let me noe wat ure saeing about.

left wth few more daes.n it's all gone.but whiie can't they jux let me go.there is nothing special in me tt i do.it's normall fur me tuh react in tt kind of way.i noe tt now is hard tuh find a job wth high pay n so on.but please give me till fridae tuh think again.but can my pay being changed n transfer some of th manager out from th store?th management team is th reason tt me or my fren or other ppl doesn't ve th rth attituted in werking.

i don't speak american asent i onli speak in british asent.have been teasing jenny about th language tt we have been talking.hahax..we're more tuh british den american eu noe.we speak n pronounces is diff from urs.even th word centre.it's not th same.so don't smack me can??even wen i asked fur th reason stop smacking me.did counter todae.and it's rili very wired fur me.some jux don't understand wat i'm trying tuh tell them till i used th american way of talking.

jenny tot me tt!!i mean tuh th english ppl not th cheena nor th malay nor th indian.some manager was impress tt i did some suggesting selling n is very consistent.wateva is th rth attituted tt i've always given them.don't try tuh sweet talked tuh me.sweet talking won't make me made up my mind tuh stay eu noe.and i noe tt sharan do make sences about asking not tuh quit.cos it's hard tuh find job out dere.

he even said tt we're lucky tuh ve this job even wth a low pay.some ppl out dere is still seeking fur jobs or wen got terminated.mac is a boring place tuh stay fur long.ve been worring over something fur dis couple of daes.have not been sleeping well or even eat well.felt tt i've lost few kg.my tummy won't rili pop out wen i eat much.it still will remain flat.aunty guateng wanted tuh bring me go eat wth her fur lunch.but...i told her tt i've eaten early in th morning.th first tuh go fur break.

answer tuh my prayer please!!!ve no worries.god will always be on ur side.nothing will happen tuh eu.be strong and looked on th bright side of life.if eu were tuh join him along.i will pray tt eu will be save wth him in th other world.and i'm sorry fur wat i ve done fur dis 20over years.i had always been th evil one.not listening tuh eu all th time.i'm sorry!!!

few more daes fur me tuh think whether i should stay or leave!!!hmmm..finding job is not easy now.letting go of everything is rather hard.th friendship in th store.th hardship tt ve been gg through fur dis 2years.th love one tt i used tuh ve.damn!!i rili ve tuh learn tuh let go of things.letting my werk go..letting my problem go..letting my worries go..letting th hurtfull things go..letting th memory go..and letting him go..

even if i'm not werking anymore.please do msg me in my blog or mail me.cos i wun let our friendship go.and will still remember eu as a friend whom always being there fur me.th friend whom went out wth me wen we're suppose tuh werk.th friend whom i enjoyed my valentine wth fur th first time of my 20years.take care wen i'm not around anymore.

will be meeting xie n tong fur walked interview tmr.damn.onli available wth few slots.hard hard hard tuh find job.and it's onli a temp job fur th GSS.!!hmmm..saving some money tuh get myself a new laptop.i can't rili used my this com so often anymore.since it's not mine.i shall own mine.and tt one dae will sure tuh come.and i rili do mean it.

wen can i go fur my appointment again??currently i can't go.problem!!not about money.but th house is empty now.everyone is busy gg tuh accompany tuh th doctor.onli mine left wth few more daes and always th last one tuh be treated well.th reason was i'm always th strong one and can stand th pain.bloody me.i think should act more weaker.not blogging tmr.will be very busy.hope tuh sleep well tonight.

whiie is my fren getting married at th young aged ah??last saturdae my primary sch fren got married.i never go fur his wedding.busy busy busy.but it's good tt he's married.th first person tuh get married in my class.hahax..be a good husband n treat ur wife good ok!!!n another one ite fren 29march is th ROM.not invited.i'm not close tuh her either.but congrats tt ure finally getting married.long lasting love tt she ve th BF!!before i new her she's alredy wth th guy till now.wishing all my fren who is getting maried all th best!!and take marriage a serious thing.it's not a game.




ps:i hate tuh let eu go,but i ve tuh..

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not in th mood.scolded xie dis morning.haiix..i'm rili sorry!i'm jux got no mood tuh joke around fur this few daes.lots lots of problem now.got no one tuh talk tuh.n felt tt i doesn't ned anymore in their life anymore.ned a shoulder tuh cry on.but i can't find any.poor me left all alone...

tried new product yesterdae.feeling very tired.sharon was my trainer.syed said it very loud tt wen ur trainer is conducting training please dun sit n pay more attention.i'm liked oh ok!!i don't give a damn.rajah asked me many question.cos tuh him i was fooling around n not paying more attention.

in th end i managed tuh answer all of his question.don't try tuh looked down on me.i noe i ve temper n it's bad n i wun listen tuh ppl.but never looked down on me..

talked tuh jason yesterdae.told him some of my problems.and he asked me not tuh think tuh much nor tuh worrie about anything.everything will be fine if i'm not thinking tuh much.imagining thinks is not always good.

wondering whether jason will leak out th things tt i told him??hope he wun sae things out tuh anyone.cos i trusted him.he's liked a brother tuh me.he even wanted tuh put my head in th UHC,cos i said th wrong thing.

conduct training jux now.first time conducting trainin fur some new products.normally i wun conduct.cos i'm scarred tuh sae things.it might be th wrong stuff.kitchen was jam.having too many things on side2,since side1 having some reparing th chiller.

gosh!!i'm broke!left wth wat's in my ezlink card till end of this month.my bill went boom boom boom!!!500plus plus plus..wondering how do i pay.my prepaid left wth 1bucks.atm left wth 3bucks.damn it!!

no money left in my wallet.intend tuh sell all my phone so tt i ve th money tuh pay my hp bill n medical bill.since my phone ve been very very very silent.whiie not sell it off instead rth??cos it doesn't make any diffi at all....

letting go of someone eu love th most in ur life is not difficult rth.?
wats th point of keepin th someone tt eu love wen th someone doesn't love eu rth.?
it's onli th sweet talking which was being fooled by rth.?
but th action seems tuh be,th someone cares more fur th someone den eu rth.?
doesn't feel any secure wen th someone told eu tt th someone n th someone is onli fren rth.?
it will onli take time tuh let go of everthing rth.?
th someone doesn't worth th tears rth.?


Wish that I..Could move on..Can't let go..It's too strong..Just like that ..And then you're gone..Was this how..You wanted it to be..Everything you had to say..Sent the tears..Right down my face.Now I'm trying to escape..The misery..



ps:looked into my eyes n tell me th truth

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wat went wrong wth me fur dis few daes???can someone tell me???i've no appettited tuh eat.i can't go sleep at night,till moring went i ve few hours left tuh go tuh werk.yesterdae n todae i burn my hand.but todae is th worst among all.

two on th right hand n two n th left hand.kept applying burning cream on my hand!!n he doesn't seems tuh care too.even if i were tuh die infront of him,i think it's liked nothing tuh him!!!!he onli asked me wat happen wen i was squating down at side2.

damn it!!even i'm his fren oso dun care!!!!shity shit!!!was angry wth him fur a moment cos i asked him tuh help me keep th buring cream n he gave me tt looked!!!but after a while i'm ok but doesn't ve any mood tuh talked tuh anyone.

feeling tired n moody.my both hand got burn so damn liked badly n no one cares.heart pain ah!!!!wenting wenting wenting...she pissed me off!!!i hate her lah!!of all person whiie must it be her???fahmie called her sepet!!!

whiie does th word JEALOUS exsit in this world.???indeed i am jealous tt eu treat her much more beta den me n eu focus more on her den on me.!!!n i noe tt i'm not needed anymore in ur life!!!dun tell me i'm wrong tuh sae tt.i ve eyes tuh see n i can feel it.n it's liked haiix haiix haiix haiix....

now a daes women or ladies must learn tuh be independent!!n show it tuh those man tt w/o them dere is still happiness and we can leave in this world w/o them.n man doesn't worth our tears.!!how much they hurt us we're still gonna be strong!!!their words wun pull us down.wat world would be like w/o women???eva wonder??

i started tuh talked wen i saw haziq.talking tuh fahmie was fun indeed.!!funny person.some words tt fahmie sae i dun understand.i asked asthma but she doesn't wana tell me.so i run tuh cafe n asked sha.den he told me th meaning.

th meanig it's liked dots dots dots lah!!super funny.need tuh learn more on my malay.very damn terribble!!moring tt time more funny.me andrea n fairs taught chumei malay.wanted tuh translate it in chinese but we duno.so we went tuh th lobby tuh sit wth yingling n asked her.

den all of us at th lobby was laughing very damn damn loud!!!i seriously can't stand it n laugh till gg tuh fall from th sit..got back tuh werk n felts very tiring..

hmmm..i'm gg back tuh simlim tuh changed my phone.some part went wrong.den tuesdae i'm gg tuh th hospital fur appointment.!!damn it..i will be gg tuh th hospital alone not letting my mum noe till i got more infomation wth me..

feelin sick now..feeling tt th room is spining rth now.gosh!)):

dun asked whiie i'm gg tuh th hopital.th onli thing i will ans is tt I'M GG TUH DIE SOON!!!n it's very very soon...

th sooner th beta!

I'M G TUH DIE SOON!!!!!


ps:letting eu go is hard

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suppose tuh meet tong at city hall mrt station.but she made up her mind tuh meet me at ps instead.she was late!!late late late..is forever late.she said tt she had no problem wen meeting xie but having problem meetin me.

cos i'm always early or fast!!i'm used tuh it.and i'm trained tuh be fast in meeting ppl ok!!!hahax..she came wth ling.ling decided tuh eat mos burger since she's hungry..so we went dere..waited fur xie n xia tuh come.

ling came cos she wanted tuh buy some cloths fur her dinner n dances thingy which is at clakquay!!she very mah fun!!but nice tuh hang around wth.funny at times..but she n me dun rili talked must cos we seldom talked.if onli got something common tuh share.

xie n xia went tuh parklane tuh meet xia fren.so me n tong went round ps window shopping.we went tuh th sword shop!!damn cool!!i got scolded from tong from holding th sword.i tot tt was fake lah!!didn't expected it tuh be real n can kill ppl.

th prices can rili cost a BOOM BOOM BOOM!!!!expensive!!i wana own alot alot at home!!tuh ve some self protection!hahax..tong sae she will buy tt tuh kill me.n i told her i will kill her by squeezing her in tiny bottle..

after tt we went walking n wanted tuh go tuh some shop..but we heard some noise coming from level 1.so we decided tuh take a looked at wat's gg on.so went tuh take a looked.saw one man top naked n screaming his lung out.!!

we wanted tuh go tuh th level 1 tuh ve a clear view.but th person went missing.so we went tuh 7elven tuh meet xia n xie..den i forgot where we went already.actually decided tuh go home.but me xie n tong went tampiness tuh walk walk see see looked looked.!!

xie bought fake eyes lashes.!!tong bought food since she's hungry.xie bought food fur alex.n i bought dirnks since i'm thirsty.went tuh th top level.!!stop teasing me!!i noe i'm scarred of high ok!!

wen i went back home my leg feels liked jelly.n can't go down th stairs.i almost fall down again n again.reached home watched okto.!!some show about religion!!they show some from malaysia n lots lots of country.damn scary th show but i didn't rili noe wat's th name of th show.

th show finish at 11pm.went tuh sleep since i'm tired but i can't get some sleep till 2 in th moring..

n todae rain!!washed some of my laundry.!!didn't ve th chances tuh dry it so i went uh my room and apply some mask tuh my face.!!hahax..n now nothing tuh do i'm blogging...

i missed th time tt i used tuh go out wth him.i missed th time tt he used tuh msg me.i missed everthing about him.and i duno wen will i get tuh see him again!!i missed him so damn much..i even dream abot him at night.gosh!!i wish things will get back tuh normal.!!if i can turn th time i would turn it n spent more time wth him..

yesterdae saw UTT!!!!he so damn HANDSOME n CUTE!!i told tong tt i'm gg tuh abondend him n go tuh UTT!!!hahax..i was jux joking wth her onli.!!cos tong sae she wana go home.xia gg home wth ah long n xie she gg tuh italy!!



ps:time pass very fast

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ps:singapore is a nice place tuh be

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damn it.!!i ve tuh wake up early moring yesterdae tuh pei ah tong go fur her interview.!!*yawn* she doesn't seems tuh be tired at all.!!and as perusual i'm always early fur th meeting..she's always late late late..gosh!!

is i walked fast ok!!!n th distance tuh th mrt station is kindna far buy i walked fast.!!sshe called me n tell me tuh walk slowly..but i'm liked reaching th station soon..eat our breakfast at mac united square...

den went tuh th building tuh find th place..th building is ROUND n i didn't expect inside th building tuh be ROUND too..so we took th lift up n anyhow press th number n it stop somewhere up dere..so as we walk n walk i starded tuh realized tt i'm walking round n round!!

every where looked th same tuh me.!!even th toilet looked liked an office place.!!enough of tt thing bahx.!!had my almost half th dae wth her.!!she doesn't seems tuh be tired seriously.

went back home!!

at night faiz called me asked me tuh take over his shift closing at centre point.!!but i told him i'm still on leave n dun wana go back werk after i finish my leave.!!but he still insinted me tuh go.!!den i go pissed off i jux hang his call!!

many times he called my number den msg me.!!he even beg me n everything but it still doesn't help!!!!he got damn angry so he shout at th phone saeing tt he wun talk tuh me..so i jux sae bye n hang th phone n went back tuh sleep.!!but i can't sleep..

felt guilty fur not helping him wen he is ineed of help.!!sorry tt i ve play th bad person!!i seriously not in th mood tuh go tuh wek now.!!let me rest fur few more daes den i go back werk lah!!

guessed wat i bought new phone!!but it's a cheena iphone!!kind of liked not used tuh use it.!!at times they jux can't read me.!!i jux dun understand whiie does touch screen phone can't read my finger.!!!!

haiix..my phone went silent fur this few daes.!!not even a single soul msg me!!msg ppl den ppl never reply me.!!maybe i jux not needed in their life bahx.!!even now i'm having problems..felt tt i got no one tuh talk tuh about my problems.!!

maybe sitting down at th side of th room n cry or talk tuh myself will sound nicer now.!!





ps:my feeling changed liked a wheather

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went out on satudae wth sujuan!tot of meeting my mum but she tired so i never meet her.!!we went walking around ps but soon we got bored!!she told me about her BF..den she bring tuh her BF werking place tuh eat durian pancake.!!

yummy!!!it's nice eu guys should try eating it.!!haha(= after we went dere we head back home!!damn tired lah!!sundae went out wth wenting n meixiang...went tuh th IT fair.dere's so many ppl dere lah!!almost got squeeze n cursh by those ppl..

wenting bought a lenovo laptop which cost $1,299.which was much more expensive den meixaing by $100.den meixaing bought a fujitsu laptop fur onli $1,189 onli.!!!n it's liked same wth ah tong laptop.!!

hmmm..gosh!!everyone msg me few daes ago but den i jux received it todae!!damn sorry about it!!tot tt they re avoiding me or wat.!!but my phone went head wire!!

tot he didn't care about me anymore or wat.!!but den yesterdae he msg him but i didn't reply him!!cos todae den i jux received everyone msg!!kind of liked dots dots dots lah!!first time in history tt i received 17msg n haven't read it n left it unread!!

damn it i ve tuh changed my phone already lah!!



ps:forgive me fur being foolish

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changed my blog link n blog skin!!having th hard time changing it!!and now it's all done!!ta da..duno whether it looks nice tuh others or not.!!but sorth of liked it..

later on gg down tuh store tuh fill in my form fur th annual leave..and taking my ring from andrea!!and taking my belt from xia!!i kept forgeting things dis few daes.!!waiting fur esther tuh repy my msg...think she's still sleeping bahx.!!cos didn't received any reply from her..

not gg out wth xie le.she kept saeing no money.!!got rili irritated so i told her not tuh go.since she no money.!!called xuan and asked her wana go fur th IT fair..

she can onli make it after 3pm..she's having her training..everyone seems tuh be busy uh!!ha..

not all noe about my new link.!!dun rili wish tuh ve lots of ppl noeing it.!!cos it makes me sick of those sickning critizing on my tag.!!can't they liked ve their own life??

ve not been msging him fur daes.onli text him tuh help me do stuff n tell him wat's gg on n so on..phone ve been very silent!!since it's spoilt oso..sux lah!!i'm getting new phone.!!n my bill flunk tuh $500plus plus.!!my line got terminate!!tt's one good thing lah!!no more m1 fur me..

got tuh go n eat my lunch before heading down tuh store..



ps:i need tuh talk tuh eu badly

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days grow longer and as the time goes by,
things are taking their change.
may love remain no matter how the weather change.
may love remain no matter how tough the life may be.
may love remain no matter how cruel the reality is.

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got no time tuh blog yesterdae!!early moring followed my parents tuh th market tuh eat..den went back home!!w/o changing my cloths i go do my stuff.!!!den went bedok wth my mum n third sis..den go meet tong n xie at ps!!!but they were late.!!

forever late.=________=

den went tuh hajilane tuh ve sheesha!!!at first damn sux.!!den get used tuh it!!hahax..fun worx..maybe next time go again wen i ve th money.!!now broke already.!!waitin fur my pay!!!gosh!!!

i applied fur one week annual leave.!!!wondering wat i'm gg tuh do few th whole week.!!!maybe gg tuh alexandra hospital.!!tuh plug my tooth.!!den ve my madical check up.!!!

feeling very week dis few dae!!vomited at werk todae.!!gosh!!!i'm gg tuh die soon.!!lots beng caring tuh me.!!asked me whether i'm ok.??wana go home not..seeing doctor later..hahah..

mah fun!!!

dun rili msg azuan tt much!!cos very tired n ve no mood tuh msg him.!!!cos i dun understand th malay.!!not used tuh msg in malay.!!den his english is funny too.!!!

gg tuh miss him very badly!!!i mean him not th him tt i'm mentioning above.!!!hahax...

gtg.!!tong is freezing cold now!!!n xie is being an idiot.!!talked nonsences!!

tmr i'm on leave!!gg tuh IT fair!!






ps:eu will always be th one tt i missed!!!

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dun read my blog using ur phone le lah!!!it's very expensive!!!not very expensive.but super duper expensive!!!!!!dun waste money seeing it!!not saeing tt eu can't see my blog.but dun use ur phone n see.!!den now no credit in ur phone how.??ppl wana contact eu how.???

and tuh make it clear.AZUAN is my fren!!i got no feeling towards him!he's attached..he's younger den me.he used tuh liked ILAH!!!he's from tanglin mall..n i dun find anything tuh fall fur him..he's short..he's dark..

leslie wong is my trainer!!i at times hate him!!cos he thinks tt i'm always quite!!!n he's 25 dis year attached..leaving in singapore..but is malaysian..

khoon is my manager but duno his aged n he's attached.!!he looked old tuh me...

n jeremy is my boss...he's old old old!!!!got tummy!!fat but unny boss..and he's married


try watching th show my dad is better den ur dad it's nice!!!!now blog again cos tmr got no time tuh blog..n thursdae is my off dae..will blog again on thursdae..

take care..and night tuh everyone!!!




ps:wan an

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hmmm..find it's common bahx.??asked alot of ppl some question..and lolx..life is full of obstacle.!!dots dots dots...anger management!!!azuan is rili a nice guy tuh talk tuh wen having problems.!!!he asked me tuh face th facts tt he's cute.!!nnn tuh him tt it's a facts!!!hahax...

nice talking tuh eu.!!no worries he's jux my fren!!!close fren.!!liked DUH!!!he's attached!!!n we liked tuh tease each other n called each other gf n bf..hahax..i will liked eu onli as a fren lah!!!no feeling fur everthing..

and he's busy wth sch!!!he felt tired after sch n dun rili reply tuh msg at times.!!!hmmm...i understand!!!i think i rili shouldn't disturb him on weekdaes bahx.!!he's busy wth sch!!!liked wat i jux mention jux now.!!!should settle n handle my own problems..

i ve growth up already whiie do i need tuh talk tuh somone wen i can handle my own problems..even i got no one tuh pour my sadness or happines...by talking tuh myself it will be great!!!dun eu think so uh.??self reflection!!!will not be seeing him fur another one week!!

went tuh werk set up DK!!walked around!!den wen tuh main store tuh help since customer in.!!den rajah asked chumei tuh do runner fur meixiang!!n i need tuh do follow up on chunmei since she's liked scarred of ppl..nnn her voice is damn soft.!!!n jenny sae tt if she spent more time wth me her voice sure loud!!haha..idiot!!!

everyone feels very tired at werk!!feeling very dull!!!not much customer lah!!!asked tuh punch out early todae!!went back home wth andrea!!yingling showed something intersting tuh me n jenny jux now!!n i find it cute!!

but i feel liked getting it fur myself.!!n i think again!!!thinkin beta not lah!!!not rili looked nice tuh ve th same things rth.??beta tuh be odd one is batter den having th same one.!!ha!!!but it's rili cute!!

yingling looked happy owning it!!went back home eat durian n soup tulang(malay words) don't rili noe wats th english name fur it.!!!damn feeling very FULL!!!i'm getting FAT leh!!!




ps:he's not into eu!!!

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dare tuh sae come tell me straight tuh my face den!!nnn since wen do i ve a BFF who critize about my thing??since it's rubbish den whiie care tuh tag in th first place.!!DUMB PPL!!!liked one of my fren sae dis is my blog wat fur care about wat other ve tuh sae about my blog!!!so jux mind wat eu ve jux sae OK!!!n if i were tuh be despreate does it concern eu.??or it will make eu die wanting tuh noe whether i'm desprate or not.??UH!!!!i onli ve closefren n good fren!!!not BFF!!!my closefren n goodfren is onli

xuan,rong,esther,elvina,sharoln,yap,tony,noreen,andrea,zhilin,steph,lihia...even they were tuh sae me i dun mind cos i understnd wat they expected me tuh be.!!n even i do quarell wth lihia n critize her,sae hurtfull words tuh her liked she's th princess n we're her slave everthing about her is perfect n ours is not!!!i do realize it but i was angry at th moment n didn't think much.!!!so i think i do hurt her tt much!!!i didn't rili msg her tt much!!cos i scarred tt my words hurt her again.!!th way she msg me was wired.!!i went through hardship as a fren wth her.!!even if i dun liked her attituted but i dun hate her!!!i treat her as my goodfren but it's ok if she treat me as a normall fren.!!

i do scream at my fren n critize them but it's always in a joking manner!!!even if they find it tuh harsh i would tell them tt i was onli joking!!n they would too.at times i do felt left out.!!!but hmmm...jux follow th flow..

n i can't remember having a BFF!!!do i ve one.???if ve i dun think they would sae tt..tell me tt in my face!!tt my blog is rubbish!!!n eu should noe wat will happen if ure my BFF!!!!



ps:i just don't give a fuck

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and he sae try not tuh sae tuh many things tuh them.!!cos they might tell her!!but as eu can see i've learn my lesson!!not tuh talk about someone!!and it's liked damn it!!i talked tuh loud n th person heard me in th manager room!!it's liked oopps!!!

i should shut my mouth instead!!!and fur me i can't be bothered tuh those who dun wana talk tuh me.!!n i will grant ur wish if eu dun wana talk tuh me.!!but not a black face if i asked eu something ok??pantang!!i'm not refering tuh eu,but eu!!!dun get th wrong idea!!

again again n again conflict!!!!!it's liked is dis life tt we wanted it tuh be or wat.??we can prevented it by happeing rth if we want it???n givin each other a chance tuh speak up.?!!it does werk rth am i rth tuh sae dis.???

and everyone do changed!!!am i rth.???and i'm changing.,eu changing.,she changing.,he changing..who else is not changing eu tell me now.???i'm being dumb or wat.??i'm stress rth now lah!!

dumb dumb!!!

ha!!faiz saes tt i now looked liked a golden monkey!!thanks ah idiot!!n step sae somthing yesterdae tuh him before i left mac!!!n stop thinking lah dei!!!i will n never be wth idiot liked him again ok.!!!not finding fault wth eu!!!but at times it good tuh think!!cos ure making ur brain werks..hahahax

hmmm...high expectation from eveyone!!gosh!!give me a break please can.??ve been away from mac fur many daes n lots of them asked me whiie n wat happen n i told them everthing!!!and i feels much beta now wen i'm away eu noe!!my hand doesn't hurts tt much anymore!!

had a wonderfull fridae!!a great dinner wth me eu she n her!!hahax..i noe tt i went head wire wen heading back home!!hahax..i can't stop criticizing th manequin!!hahax..rili damn funny ok??

my mind set thinking again!!!of killing myself!!i jux duno whiie!!!and i asked mum whiie does GOD ve tuh take away my love one!!and whiie they dun wana take me instead!!i would trade my like if i can..n mum sae tt cos "GOD loves them more he loves eu!!"

damn it!!n mum saes tt even if i tried tuh kill myself,no matter how many way i tried GOD still dun wana take me!!and GOD dun love eu liked he love others...



nnn wat does it feels liked w/o eu in my life???meaningless!!!i'm not prepared tuh leave eu yet!!cos i'm scarred,scarred of loosing eu!!but i noe tt one dae i might or will loose eu!!!n tt some dae will come rth.??n saeing th truth i dun mind if eu see dis..i love eu more den anything else n eu mean everthing tuh me!!!n i duno wat will i be w/o eu around me!!!i love eu more den i love my fren!!!who asked them not tuh be eu!!!if not i oso will love them liked how i love eu!!!they jealouse.??let them be bahx!!hahahax...if eu never see me around anymore it is a must fur eu tuh miss me horx!!!n must think of me wen eu wake up early morning n think of me wen eu wana sleep.!!!let me be th first n th last one in ur mind!!!ok.???please be carefull next time!!dun cut urself again..see ur hand got so many cut!!n it's liked OMG!!!eu got enough blood not.??dun call me dumb dumb already lah!!i noe i dumb but dun sae lah!!wait more dumb how.??hmmm..wen is ur holidae.??wana go out fur th last time!!!



Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn’t healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Baby there’s a lot that I miss
In case I’m wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I’d ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I’ve longed to be your girl
But I never said a word
I guess I’m gonna miss my chance again



ps: cos there ain't nothing tt i can do tuh let eu stay!!!

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OHHHHH!!!finally blog!!!got no time fur it.!!everydae werk werk werk!!got myself a new job..sales marketing!!hahax..

very boring at first.!!cos i dun liked tuh be in class n listen tuh lots of talking.but i myself loves tuh talk.hahahax..beware of me..

my trainer is a malaysian!!n he's funny!!!he is one idiot who thinks tt i'm quite.!!but i'm not...

kept hearing lots of things...it's liked damn!!!i dun rili care!!let it be bahx.!!!and wednesdae i never go tuh werk!!NO SHOW!!!!first ever in my life!!hahax..

learn my lesson le.!!!not tuh be lazy n never open my mouth if i dun wana help them.!!got scolded todae!!haiix..normall fur me..

hmmm..tot of buying i phone!!!since it's cheap n fordable fur me.!!but not now..cos need tuh buy some cloths fur office =S

me wearing office wear is damn cartoon seriously.!!!but haha..went tuh office wearing black skinny.!!SHHH!!!my boss didn't notice it..

being very sensitive now a daes.!!especialy tuh......shouldn't mention names.!!but rth if one dae if ure bored of me please do tell me.!!i will take one step back!!!nnn be alone!!

everyone seems tuh be very busy...steph is busy wth sch!!!fiona wth her own problems.!!!tong wth her duno finding job...n him wth his sch!!!damn it!!!i think i'm th onli one who is not busy.???

planiing tuh come back werk every weekend!!saturdae n sundae.!!!since my office job onli week daes.!!!n i dun wana stress myself werk weekend lorx.!!!

someone is complaing tt i'm using th com too long.!!!!it's liked OK!!!fine i give eu back ur com!!!!!


NAH TAKE BACK!!!!





ps:missing eu very badly!!!

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