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title: liked wat i did mention previonsly fill in th blank wif th rth ans in my brain.. my brain went blank again fur todae.. weneva ppl tell me things i would liked gone blank n wondering wat are they saein.. n finally finish reading new moon.. finding esclips..
tianhong aske me tuh stock up before i punch out.. onli th cake chamber.. so she saes tt if i can't find any cake or muffin in th chiller please go tuh th freezer n take it.. so i listen tuh her.. went tuh th freezer tuh take walnut cheese cake,but onli one tt i took.. n i put it rth in th cake chamber.. not in at th chiller.. see how dumb i can be.. she laugh at me.. asked me whiie i onli take one n put it inside.. even was asked is dere anything tt i wish tuh tell her.. but th onli excuses was.. i'm tired!! wish i could trust her by tellin wat i was feeling deep inside of me.. but i can't cos of some particullay thing.. noeing tuh many things abou her.. boring life now!!! so many warnning letter.. is dere anything else tt they can give me instead of th letter?? i'm sick of writing th letter.. termination or suspend?? damn it!! i could face anything as long tt was true.. i squarred my shoulders and walked forward to meet my fate, with my destiny solidly at my side.. ps: Doesn't change anything. Sorry. Labels: run away |
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title: "love which cannot be measured.. in either kind of ways.. i'm letting eu go.. even though ue never once liked me nor hagging dere.. my heart beats even faster wen ur name is mention.. everyone changed liked eu used tuh remind me.. you told me tt eu wun get urself involved in BGR thingy.. but it seems tuh be tt eu stared tuh fall fur her.. i'm someone who can brighten up ur life.. even if i can't brighten my own.. choose tuh let eu go instead of letting eu stay.. letting eu be tuh whom eu wants tuh be.. if eu choose tuh be wif th cheena ppl.. i would gives eu my blessing.. tears fallin of joyness but not sadness.. cos eu found someone tt eu can speaks tuh easily.. n not someone who is liked me.. whom choose tuh hurt eu deeply.. and wasn't fun tuh talk tuh.. and it seems tuh be i'm always a bad person in eu eyes.. no matter how hard i tried.. i wun blame eu fur everything.. not even blaming eu fur hating me.. wo de gan jue gai bian.."
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title: my mind went blank!! i can't think anything about almost th whole dae.. life wasn't meaningless.. but something was in my mind tt i'm afarid tuh think of other stuff.. doing my job slowly.. drop almost everthing at th cafe area.. even th milk was spilt half of th frankie machine.. i wasn't rather sure wat was me doing!!
half of my soul went away.. hmm.. can't find anyone tuh talk tuh about whiie my is my heart beats even faster den usuall.. i reminded shah tt i was nervous n my tummy feeling liked a washing machine.. he insited me of telling him.. he even promise tt he wun laugh at me or so on.. so i did told him.. ........ he almost burst into laughter.. but i reminded him again tt he's not suppose tuh laugh at all.. den he gave me tt crappy looked tt he normally used tuh tuh tease me.. i even told sujuan about it.. den she told me somthing which rili makes me hate th person tt i was about tuh punch yesterdae.. i didn't rili expects her tuh be good in lying tuh guy or even creates stories wif those guys which wasn't even true at all.. but i doesn't seems tuh understand whiie some guys choose tuh liked her including him.. were their drinks got spike by her?? onli th looked tt ppl judged.. find urself a much more expensive girl lah!!! she is way too cheap fur eu.. i dun mind tuh be rude at eu.. yl told me tt eu doesn't liked ppl tuh lie tuh eu.. liked as if i liked wen eu lied tuh me!!! can't eu jux tell me th truth?? yah i noe.. i'm always a bad person in ur eyes.. i onli noe how tuh hurt ur feeling onli.. blah blah blah.. i would be doing closing fur dis whole weekends.. but most proberly i wun be seeing eu fur almost a month.. ps:fill in my mind wif th correct ans Labels: you could put th blames on me |
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title: liked wat i sae dun make me angry!!!i will make sure tt whoever makes me angry or push th limit will get it in either kind of ways.i dun care whether ure a girl or a guy!!i dun mind using my forces tuh punch her rth in th face.especialy liked jux now..
but she's too weak tuh fight wif me..so i choose tuh push her n let her hit tuh th edged of th piller.damn it!!!i warned her not tuh disturb me.and den she choose tuh disturb me!!dun make me turn into a bad person.i dun wan kill her wif my hand!! trusting ppl too easily!!stops th habbit of it YANI!!!trusting them got urself into trouble.even if eu got nothing tuh do wif it nor eu didn't take it nor everything!!!my head is spinning now i can't get myself tuh go tuh bed.feeling rather down!!damn it!! i'm not scarred of th warnning letter or termination from werk!!i'm jux scarred of loosing their trust.due tuh some argument which had happen.i can't point fingers at them whom i didn't rili see whether they took it or not.obviuosly they should be blaming me fur letting them used my thing!! everyone noes how i werk.how i put th money n so so on!!i onli got super uneasy wen i found tt something went wrong!!times is up n i ve tuh punched out!!i was told tuh do some routine.so i did obey it!!n tt time wen i was about tuh realized it and seeing it wif my very eyes.it's gone liked wat i felt tt something wasn't gg smoothly. waited fur very long tuh gets things done.mr.L asked me not tuh worried too much since i didn't take it.jux sign th letter n foget about it!!i noe..thnx fur th cheering it up thingy.told fahime n achit about it too..by th time they trying tuh helped i'm already gg off.can't wait any longer. my head stared tuh spin again n again!!i beta turn it..maybe some dae my dae will be back.no more quarelling wif him nor anything.i will groaned instead of saeing it tuh him or shout at him..haiix!!! ps:hurting deep inside Labels: jux a smile will do |
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title: At times i wish tt time rili doesn't pass that fast!!i hated it th most.and at times i doesn't wana tell you things cos you wun keep th promise tt eu ve made wif me..i jux hated everything!!even i hated you now!!!i'm onli left behind.eu wouldn't wana care anymore if i were dead,am i rth tuh sae tt??
eu even would leave me falling apart!!made me feels horrible n afriad tuh looked into th future!!tears falling at th coner of my eyes.it feels pain again n again!!i tired my very best tuh be happie.trying not tuh looked back timed.!!!!but eu took th happiness away from me... th sky is dark n th cloud seems tuh be red.it looks liked it gonna rain soon!!where is th star tt i'm wishing see it??it makes me feels beta seeing it.it goes th same tuh where are you wen i needed help th most??no words were said by you.and i started tuh realized tt i was dumb by eu!! i was dere tuh help you wen eu needed me th most!!but wen i needed you th most???ure no where tuh be found.wen i asked you,you were tuh said tt "i'm okay wif it,if ure tuh sae me dis way" ... am i supposed tuh buy your story again n again?? i'm being foolish!i doesn't noe wat tuh do.th onli thing tt i did was crying.crying liked a lil baby whom needs th mummy!!!ha!!i got no one tuh turn tuh now!!blogging??tsk!!been quarell wif so many ppl..they jux can't see me doing my things..haiix ps:PLEASE LEAVES ME ALONE!!!(i've tuh cool myself down) Labels: i'm sorrie |
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title: Wish That I Could Move On Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong Just Like That And Then You're Gone Is This How You Wanted It To Be Everything You Had To Say Sent The Tears Right Down My Face Now I'm Trying To Escape The Misery Why Don't You Love Me The Way I Loved You It Feels So Crazy Cause I Dunno What I Did To You If You're Gonna Hurt Me Then Do It Quickly Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin If You Don't Wanna Stick Around Then, Baby, Forget About Me
Boy, My Heart Was True And That You Can't Deny Don't Be A Fool And Walk Away From All The Lies It's Up To You Cause Heaven Knows I've Tried Tell Me You're Still In Love Yeahhhh Ohh Why Don't You Love Me |
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title: was late fur 10mins todae!!ms.j wasn't happie about tt!!she even talked behind my backed!!damn her!!n i told ms.l tt if she not happie wif me can talk wif me not talked behind my back and if she liked tuh give me warnning letter,i wouldn't mind taking it n write it!!cos i doesn't give a damn care tuh th rest of them now!!!
being ironic!!!scram off!!liked tuh wayang uh??join th mediacop instead den!!didn't rili talked tuh ms.j..i onli scream at her n gives her th black face which i ve long been waiting tuh give.kindna feeling very angry at tt moment..even now!!!sha got pissed off by his good brother mr.r yesterdae. talked tuh sujuan yesterdae on th phone.there is some words tt we doesn't understand wen talking wif each other..n i told her some of my stuff lah!!still she saes tt dun make him jealous le lah!!den i was liked huh??who making who jealous??den how he noe how i feel ah??n dun be so xiao ci lah!!! azuan is kiling me man!!!he doesn't seems tuh care at all now!!not even call or so so so on..damn him!!which tt i can kill him now..jux cos a words got angry wif me n changed number doesn't wana give me..lucky there is such word called patient in my dictionary!!if not he will be dead by now!! who tuh talked tuh or vent my anger at??everyone seems tuh be busy..either they are werking,having exam or having new fren tuh talked tuh on th net or phone...been alone fur some times!!!learning tuh many things n noeing tuh many things isn't a good idea either.especial wen ure in mac!!! or even having feelings fur anyone oso isn't a good thing!!!or i should remove th words feeling n jealous in my dictionary!!!cos i'm getting scarred of th word.i'm scarred tuh ve any feeling fur anyone!!i would get jealous wen th one tt i love doesn't treats me well or ignoring me!!falling fur someone???it took a sec tuh fall fur someone n it tooks forever tuh forget somone!!!th words jealous is very strong!!!n i tends tuh get jealous too easily. TSK!! tt's whiie now i'm trying tuh control myself!!!not tuh feel a things towards him or get jealous by th way he treats me..cos i noe tt some daes i will get out from this problems..or maybe if i'm still alive someone will unlocked it n make me feels more secure!!!liked azuan is doing now!!but i'm more into being his fren den more den tt...even he still called me dear.a dear in his eyes as a dearly fren... how long more should i wait tuh sit in his bike again???waiting tuh see his new motorbike which he promise tt he's gg tuh get one!!!maybe a small motor cos his leg ain't tt long!! gives me stength tuh belive!!! ps:dreams are ment fur sleeping & wishing upon a star don't come true... Labels: goodbye my lover |
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title: there ain't no star tuh see tonight!!seen onli one!!but seeing more star will make th sky looks nicer rth???but does wising upon a star do come true??but seeing star rili makes me feels relaxed..so wana join me kan xing xing mah??lolx..
can't watch charlie n th chocolate factory!!!puga aske me whiie wana go home early den i told him th reason.den he laughed at me!!so bad of him..den he sae tt he ll go home together wif me tuh watched th show.den asthma burst into laughter.. damn!!!feeling moody..todae tong came tuh visit me!!how sweet..hahahax..wenting sae tt my BF came so i run out tuh see who but turn out tuh be tong!!hahahx..dun kill him!!if not i will die of no one tuh talked tuh if tong n xie is busy wif werk!!! i will help eu kill him one fine sunny dae wen i'm feeling beta!! gtg!!will be werking early moring tmr which is liked 7am in th early moring.and it's a first dae of th week!!! ps:wif or wif/out Labels: sleeping time |
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title: was damn early fur werk todae.!!gosh!!so i sat donwn at th crew room n read new moon wif my loud music plug rth into my ear!!punch in was told tuh do one round lobby den iron my uniform!!!shit!!!den wen i was walking into th kitchen i bump into him!!
each time wen i see him i would feel tt my heart feels liked stopping,but now it seems tuh be numb!!!it doesn't mean a thing tuh me now i guessed!!!there is something which i feels liked voiced it out tuh him but i don't dare tuh asked!!he might think tt i'm still in love wif him or so on...blah!!! i hate it!!!whiie ppl choose tuh lie instead of telling th truth??whiie lie??some sae tt scarred tell th truth will hurt th person!!but if lie tuh th person wun it make a double hurt!!!i oso duno lah!!if they choose tuh lie i jux ve tuh act liked there is nothing tt i noe lorx or got hurt..i never sae it's eu eu eu or eu!!i noe who th person can already!! i can't uploaded my photo!!cos i can't find my micro sd card!!damn!!tot of uploading it todae!!haiix..azuan still doesn't wana give me his number!!feels liked killing him now!!!but i can't bear tuh do tt lah!!!wenting saes tt i n him matched!!cos both short!!hahax..but den i laughed at her..den i told her tt he's younger den me n he liked tuh bullie me..ha!!i missed th old time tt i used tuh ve!!but not wen th part wen i'm forgetting F***!!!i missed th time tt we used tuh slack n go out wif them... time pass very past n i'm turning 21 soon..damn!!!i wish i was 17again!!!todae i ve tuh sleep late.tuh watch some show!!n tmr i will be werking 7.30am or 11.30!!i'm confussed!!!and it's joanne shift!!damn her!!purposely derx lorx..n i hate it th most!!!gapbaster fur breakfast is not out yet!!i'm sure tuh screw it up!!! my fever is up again!!i duno wat tuh do oso lah!!feeling rather restless now a daes. ps:tak sangup nak menigal kan mu.. Labels: trust me |
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title: it's getting worst!!everydae having fever..not wasting my money tuh go see doctor!!!cos it doesn't made any diffirent.eat medicine but still th same..took tempreture tuodae at werk but it seems tuh be something wrong wif th thingy..th number was 32.2..n syed feels wired about th number..thinking whether i'm still alive or not..hahahx..
not human!!werking was rather stress todae wif joanne..damn!!!i ve tuh suffered!!can't go fur my break..but i insisted syed tuh let me go cos i'm hungry n todae dere is no m2 beanies!!!my mum n sister came down todae..wanted tuh go tanglin mall todae..but i didn't managed tuh go..pei my mum n sis go out!!! jason was trying tuh make me angry jux now..but it turn tuh laughter instead!!asked him tuh help me take 2fresh milk.but he took marigold fresh milk th kids meal milk!!!den i laughed n pinched his tummy..den he said tt i asked him tuh take fresh milk but not th farm house th milk..den i said ok den take th farmhouse fresh milk instead!! den after taking it out,i asked him tuh help me take th low fat milk fur me..den he being irritating n took th kids meal low fat milk give me instead..den i laugh n chase him!!!den i pinched him again at th tummy..joanne asked me what am i doing at th back wif jason..den i told joanne th stories den everyone laughed!!enjoyed my few mins before punching out!!! noreen got shock wen she sees my new hairstyle..n she took my picture eraly in th moring!!hahax..she saes tt i looked liked someone form th back!!but lucky yudi was th first person tuh take photo wif me =)) lucky him!!not everyone can take picture wif me eu noe..hahax gonna missed him!!!his flight was 340pm..he came eary tuh meet us fur th last time!!!damn it!!!i will be doing closing fur th whole of next week!!!n my off dae was changed tuh sundae!!!but i dun wana..will uploade some photo!!wat i ve been up to at werk..sneaking my phone around tuh take photo... would i still believe wat ure saing or telling me??or should i believe it??i'm feeling confused!!n th trust is no longer dere!!making used of me tuh help eu check on something n so on!!!scram off!!!I HATED EU th most!!!!i'm letting eu go easily!!crying wif no tears fallin..would eu let me sleep now??i'm feeling rather tired!! ps:i'm feeling sick n rather tired...can i sleep forever?? Labels: pei wo qi kan xing xing hao ma?? |
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title: busy wif don't know what stupid shit!!been out wif tong n xie this two daes.find xie at her werking place!!told tong some of th secret tt i have,which i'm not suppose tuh sae it out!!but she insit me of telling her.then she laughed at th secret!!!i noe it's kind of liked funnie...
damn it!!!liked what i predicted it!!!azuan lost his phone!!!how can i get his number back??many kind of ways i tired but he still insist of not giving it tuh me!!shit him!!!i hate him lah!!!will be seeing him this fridae again.. finding ppl wen i have got nothing tuh do!!been doing cafe opening!!!7-3..damn tired!!didn't rili ve a good night sleep.after i recover my flu i got a high fever now every night!!i hate it!!!one by one liked as if i'm gg tuh die or something...SHIT!!!getting weaker as time past.. hmmm...next time be carefull!!!not worrie anything now!!my feeling is already numb!!i duno wat is jealous n pain in th heart..tuh me ure jux someone special tuh me!!nothing else..i cared fur eu cos tt's th onli thing tt i can do now.. yesterdae was a horrible dae fur me.but todae was something beta!!!gapbaster failed on sundae but i'm happie fur tt!!!nothing makes me more happpier wen gapbaster fails on 黑鬼魂 shift!!learning new language was rather fun!!! je souhaite que vous ayez été là pour se reposer avec moi observant l'ensemble du soleil(french) ps:i'm getting weaker Labels: tt's th onli thing tt i can do to love you |
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