title: Injured myself yesterdae. Had a very painfull fall. It's liked i'm 1.5meter above the ground and i fall. Amazingly, i fall on a rectangular 1meter high table. My right leg hitted at the edge of the table. And the table edge has a metal plate. Cool uh? Now there is a big bruces and a mark of red line in between th bruces. And now i'm having difficulty sitting down. :( pain till i don't know how to express myself.
I don'tknow whether i'm suppose to be happy or sad. Whether to forgive and forget. Or even to accept her for she is my sister. For what had happen for this couple of years, would i still be here standing tall accepting that nothing had happen? For hurtting my family to the core. I rili hate myself to be so strong to accept everything. To have the guts to face everything is not that easy as what you think it is. I thought that this is what i always wanted? To have her back in the family. To have family reunion liked we use to have in so many years back? I don't know. I wish that i could run away from everything. Run as far as i could. I'm not a coward!! It's just that it happen too fast. Too fast till I don't rili know what my feeling is telling me now. I wish he would still be here to hear about my problem. But not anymore. Cos an imature person liked me *as what he declay me as* who would want to stay by my side to hear all my rubbish? Do i rili mean to hurt you unintentionly? OMFG !! i don't wish to talk about it. Stop coming into my dream again. Hope one dae i will fully stop thinking about the past between you and me. It's a challenge that you are not my greater fear. You wouldn't be th greatest impact in my life for the break up.It's totally 1month plus that we broke up. I wish to move on with my life. And i need that special pillar somewhere. ps: Give &take .? Labels: would it possible be |
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